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"Your first love or return love or "soulmate" whatever-- is BS. If it were perfect, if you were meant to be-- you would be. period. This silver lining romantic wanna be bullshit -being in love with a non relationship-being infatuated with "what couldve been, " loving a ghost of what was--- makes it easier for you to just fuck around and excuse the crap that you will likely pull with the next girl. The next girl who will probably try to prove to you she is so worth it and you will just hurt her. You will waste her time because you wanna brood in fairy land with unicorns. What it all comes down to - is you are an assclown. An assclown who is in love with the game of what you cant have. Because if your true love came tomrorow-and said buddy im here to stay-- you would be bored in 6 months. You love the chase, the game. I am not trying to down play your fantastical notion of teenage yearning--but Romeo and Juliet die at the end of the play. It's very glamorous when you are 15-- but you are not. Grow up, put your big boy undies on, and realize that things dont work out because they didnt work in the first place. Im not trying to be mean- weve all been there. But you gotta smarter than your ideas. Move on. Stop ignoring your life, stop pining for lost things, and stop trying to make imperfect things perfect. It doesnt work. Sorry to burst your barbie bubble."
7 comments:
You nailed every inch of this. I have no idea what sparked it, but this is the kind of realization that mature people have, and teenagers (and that includes 38 year olds living in their parents' basement) have yet to figure out. I once told a teenager that his infatuation with a certain moronic girl was more to prove that he was "worth being loved" than it was "actual love". This kind of love exists to prove the self worth of the pursuer. Its also about power. On the one side, its the sad and sorry need to have a controlling effect on someone who otherwise doesn't want you. On the other side, it results in stalking and all that can lead to.
Yes, my teenage years were rough :) No stalking incidents btw...just sayin'.
Candle, I should have specified that I wasn't the original poster, but I have been in his shoes. I like what you said about it not being actual love and more about proving you're lovable. I think that might be the root of my problem, so thanks!
Plus I recognized the ex in there too ;P
Heya, why did you go all "private blog" ? :)
I don't know, Candle. The voices told me to?
Rain, as far as I know, YOU are one of the voices in my head LOL
Candle, I had a feeling the ex and his girlfriend had found my blog...that's the real reason.
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